Heart of Thankfulness. Unfailing Love.

There are no words to REALLY and TRULY express what my heart feels like lately. God has been doing some amazing things in my life.

Ever wonder where life is taking you? Cause I do EVERY DAY. I don't question what God is doing, I just wonder sometimes where He is taking me, and what He has planned. Although I enjoy the journey I sometimes wish I just knew how it all turned out. Even in those times that I do want to know it all, I am constantly reminded that why would I need "faith" if God told me it all before it happened? I just need to remember to trust in His perfect plan! It's not always about knowing what will happen tomorrow but trusting Him for the blessings of today!

I have come to realize more about my personality and myself lately. I am the type of person that always wants to know WHY certain things happen, and have a complete understanding for the reasons people do or say the things they do. If I know and have understanding then I seem to be okay, but the minute I am confused or do not know why certain things are happening I go into panic mode!

Lately, I have had some things happen where the Holy Spirit will speak to me about something and I have no idea why I need that information, but I receive it and go on with life. Then within a few weeks, I get the answer to why I needed to know what He revealed to me in my spirit. It's like I get this realization that God is teaching me to be more aware of when He is speaking to me. Little by little I am becoming more aware of His voice.

Even with all the crazy questions that come up in my mind and heart daily, I love where I am in life right now with God, although I am constantly craving more. Which I think will ALWAYS be the case. My heart is burning with a continued desire to know Him MORE and MORE everyday! I know I should not be surprised by His continued faithfulness in my life but I am. I am in AWE of how amazing He is! A life that is continuously blessed beyond belief, one that takes me on a journey that is completely God-led. I would not want it any other way. How could one NOT want a God-Led life with the creator of ALL things, the reason I am where I am today is because of HIM!

A few days ago while reading a devotion I was given this summer, God gave me EXACTLY what I needed.

“Rest in the deep assurance of My unfailing Love. Let your body, mind, and spirit relax in My Presence. Release into My care anything that is troubling you, so that you can focus your full attention on Me. Be awed by the vast dimensions of My Love for you: wider, longer, higher, and deeper than anything you know. Rejoice that this marvelous Love is yours forever! The best response to this glorious gift is a life steeped in thankfulness. Every time you thank Me, you acknowledge that I am you Lord and Provider. This is the proper stance for a child of God: receiving with thanksgiving. Bring Me the sacrifice of gratitude, and watch to see how much I bless you”

I will rest in His love, through all the trials and tribulations. I am thankful to know such a loving heavenly father. He provides for me in more ways than I could ever imagine!! Right now in my current life’s dilemma He has given me PEACE, that peace that surpasses all understanding. I constantly talk to Him wanting to know what He is doing in my heart, why do I feel the way I do about certain situations? Is this of Him? If not take away the desire PLEASE! Pull out EVERY root that is planted within me that is NOT from You God! Reveal to me the things that are not of you that I may dispose of them and replace them with YOUR desires! I have prayed over and over that God would show me what it is that He is doing in my life right now… and as I bowed my head and with my hands to my face catching the tears, God whispered so sweetly “Patience my child, Patience”.. at that moment I looked up and on my wall at work I see a scripture that my student added (to my current wall of index card scriptures) on it said “You do not understand what I am doing now, But you WILL” John 13:7. I come to find out that she had put that there two-days before then! God knew what I needed when I needed it. No matter what the turn out is of my hearts dilemma I know that I sought God every step of the way. I may not currently understand, but as He says I will! It may not turn out the way I expect but God’s best is always better than anything I could imagine for myself.

So for now I will soak in His unfailing Love. I will thank Him daily for the blessings bestowed to me in my life. I will be forever indebted to this unconditional love that He displays daily. As I continue to fail at certain things in life, I will continue to pick myself back up and with His help I will be victorious. All that matters is His will and purpose for my life. Thankfulness will RULE my heart. Marvelous things will happen, scales will fall off my eyes enabling me to see more and more of His glorious riches. I will be centering my entire being in Him, enjoying an ABUNDANT life by overflowing with praise and thankfulness.

Enter into His gates with thanksgiving and a thank offering and into His courts with Praise! Be thankful and say so to Him, bless and affectionately praise His name! For the Lord is good; His mercy and loving-kindness are everlasting, His faithfulness and truth endure to all generations” Psalm 100:4-5