Plan and Purpose

"... But you're here. You're real, I know I can trust You
Even when it hurts, even when its hard, even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You, Cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul, Healer of my scars, You Steady my Heart!
I am not going to worry, I know that You've got me
Right inside the palm of Your hand, Each and every moment
What's good and what get broken, Happens just the way you plan..."


This song has been stuck in my head since I first heard it! With 2012 going in full force, I have spent the last month really just pressing into God and diving into His word. Towards the end of 2011 I asked God to really uproot and bring to fruition anything that was in me that was not planted by Him. I surrendered my everything to Him allowing the Holy Spirit to really speak wisdom to my life and that I may have open ears to receive it. I really had a huge desire to learn the true meaning of "dying to myself " and living for Christ. 


I know that each and every step of my life has been God ordained. I know that He purposes and wills for my life to prosper. There are times when life's circumstances can mess with your mind and make you waiver from that faith. I started 2012 with a fast along with my church. Fasting facebook for a month, and spending that extra time in prayer and seeking God's guidance. I also fasted meat for about 25 days, as that was something I felt challenged to do back in November. The first few weeks I was getting little bits and pieces from God but nothing concrete. I spent a lot of time in prayer asking God to reveal what 2012 was about for me, and He gave me the most clear picture ever. God started to give me a new perspective, His perspective. He was opening my eyes to thing that I was blinded to before, showing me areas where I was holding bitterness and resentment. He has called me to forgive these particular people as God forgives us daily of our trespasses. He showed me that no matter what every person is a Child of God and that His love for them is unconditional. I began to desire to LOVE people in that same manner.

Physically during this time I was dealing with many issues. I was getting so frustrated as the my health has not been where I would expect it to be for about 5 months. I kept praying and praying and remembering God's promises.

Jeremiah 29:11 
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, say the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope" 

Romans 8:28
"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose"

He gives me complete peace and hope that all things will work together for His good. I am reminded that it is all in His purpose and plan.  He is my ultimate provider and healer. I continued to press into Him and surrender myself to Him more and more even though my trials and tests became bigger both at Home and work. The Holy Spirit continued to push me to keep the faith to not grow weary and reminded me NOT to grow weary!

At that moment I was introduced to a new song from a favorite artist and the words HIT me like a done of bricks.

"Trouble chasing me again, breaking down my best defense, I'm looking, God I'm looking for you.
Weary just won't let me rest and fear is filling up my head, I'm longing, God I'm longing for you
But I will, FIND you in the place I'm in, FIND you when I'm at my end, FIND you when there's NOTHING left of me to offer you except for brokenness. You life me up, You never leave me thirsty. When I am weak, When I am lost and searching I find you on my KNEES" 


I am seeking Him no matter where I am with my circumstances. I will FIND Him there is no doubt.
I am not sure what God is doing at this moment in my life, but I know He is moving deep within me to seek Him more and more. Revealing that 2012 is a year of discipline, to not give up when things are hard and to continuously remember that God has a plan and purpose for everything that happens. It will all go according to HIS perfect plan.

I may not always know what he is doing but I have to completely trust in His promises. As I was reading His word this past week, I was in Genesis 50 after Jacob had passed, Joseph's brothers in Verse 15 state that "Perhaps Joseph will hate us, and may actually repay us for the evil which we did to Him"
Joseph's response really stuck with me. In Verse 19 "Do not be afraid, for am I in the place of God? But as for you, you meant evil against me: but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is to this day, to save many people alive"


I love that Joseph knew he had to experience what He did to get to where God needed him so he could be used for His purpose and plan.

I only pray that I can remember that no matter my circumstance or trial. God has his hand on my life. I know it is ALL for the glory of HIM. I will stay true and steadfast in my faith and trust God has it all under control. I knowing that He has my life in the palm of His hand, I cannot help but SMILE and press on!

I challenge you to do the same!


In Christ
KristiLee