Sunday, September 19, 2010

Faithfulness



So i know its been a LONG while since I have written in here. Life has come at me from every direction.. yet God has been so faithful. I spent alot of time writing in my personal journal at home but felt it was time for me to get back to this blog.

Lately, alot has been on my mind. Life really knows how to take you on a journey of unexpected twists and turns, and without God at my side I am not sure where I would be. God is the reason I have made it through the difficult times. He has been my provider and protector.. he has been faithful.

1 Thessolonians 5:24 "He who calls you is faithful..." God is faithful ALWAYS.
we sing this song at church called You are Faithful by Jesus Culture..

The bridge says

"Your spirit inside me holds me close,
in your wonderful presence I let go.
I cleanse my hands, you burn my heart.
I cry out for love, you set me apart"

This is me. I know he hold me close! I love the burn in my heart for him that grows daily.. and I know he sets me apart. This speaks wonders to me.



Those who know me know that I can get ahead of myself out of excitement and I somtimes do not always wait for God to completely guide me.. I sort of speak JUMP the gun. I get so excited about things that I know God has planned for me, I do not wait and allow him to guide me through the journey. I have done that often recently. I know there are things that God has called me to, and I know the ministry in which I am led to do, but I do not always get the timing right.

This next year in my last year at my current job and I move on. Where .. is a mystery that has yet to be fully revealed to me by God, but I am often reminded of the faithfulness of God. I at one point thought for sure that I was headed in one direction next year, but as I continue to pray in the Spirit and study I got a clear "wait for me". God spoke to me in a way that was so gentle and caring. Like a father telling his daughter to slow down and not run so far ahead of him. I get anxious and I do not wanna mess up what God has planned for me, but our speaker at church last weekend, talked about how God had a plan for EVERYONE. So that plan will always be there, and its up to us to allow God to help us to fulfill. I have fully surrendered myself to the work of the Lord, so whether I teach, or do athletic training, nursing, go into missions or attend bible school I will do it with Him leading the way. God is faithful and he will complete in me what he has started. My job is not to take the lead, but to FOLLOW.

I am often reminded of his continued faithfulness in my life especially in the last 6 months. It has been the most trying time of my life, hit with attack after attack of the enemy. But the bible talks in Deuteronomy 28:7 says:

"The Lord your God shall cause your enemies who rise up against you to be defeated before your face..."

I am ready and prepared to live for him. But I have to constantly remind myself that no matter the circumstance or what my MIND is telling me, He is ALWAYS faithful. I praise God for that. He is here with me. I am on my way to living my life as He has planned and life could NEVER be better. I am looking forward to my future :) wherever that may be!